I don't know. Maybe it's a warped perception of the world on MY part! Maybe it's just wishful thinking......but aren't we all in the same reality?? I mean, there aren't different time and space realities co-existing, that interact with each other occasionally, are there??
Let me explain. In my very questionable wisdom, I started dating again...or at least ATTEMPTED to start dating again. I used the very cost effective Plenty of Fish dating site, and although I know the site has it's many detractors, I plunged in and started contacting women. YES, WOMEN! While some of you think my "gay act" isn't really "an act", I DO still like women. However! I'm beginning to see a pattern that has me concerned. All the women I'm interested in, aren't interested in me, and all the women interested in me; I don't want to meet! This has me saying, Hmmmmmmm to myself.
I DID meet two women in person. No, not at the same time.....but there is food for thought there! LOL..Just kidding....maybe.
The first woman has a Masters, is a teacher, helps support her adult daughter and is a fitness freak with an "outstanding physique!" We had dinner and some awkward 1st date conversation and I was told she would like to see me again. Well, good! Things were starting out OK. She wasn't gross or repulsive and she seemed to be interested. But let's get back to her story in a few minutes.
The second woman wanted to text and e-chat for a good while because she had been a victim of a stalker, and was nervous about actually meeting with men right away. I guess being on a public dating site and being afraid of stalkers SHOULD have rung some alarm bells for me, but NOOOOOOO. However, other than THAT, she seemed GREAT! She was an Account Executive, drove a BMW, seemed very intelligent, and was fun to chat with. After THREE WEEKS! of chatting she finally agreed to meet at a local lounge. Unfortunately there wasn't an ounce of physical chemistry. So after we both agreed there wasn't any future, I'm back on the obviously unstable rocky road of dating.
Which brings me back to Fish #1. Although I had been e-chatting with her since the first date, yesterday, I sent her a note on POF, because she never answers her phone,(???) and said that I thought we should have dinner again.
She asked me....."Again?" "Have we met?"
Now this might seem funny to those of you IN relationships, or those used to the vagaries of single life, but it was a quick slap to me! I guess the one thing we ALL would like to think: At least we're not FORGETTABLE!....guess again dumbass!
I don't think I quite know what to do about this dating thing. I kinda doubt a woman will just walk up to my door, naked, with a six pack and say: HONEY! I'm HOME! But that sure would solve this dating dilemma!
To answer my initial question I don't think we live in parallel realities, or in different time warps, ........except maybe in our own minds. I have my dream fantasy woman and they have their fantasy man and in those dreams are hopes. Hopes for a better, more satisfying life, of a satisfaction and contentment not being found in this, "time and space". And having hopes is a goal of a sort. Chasing your dream. It's important to keep your dreams and try to make them a reality. And for now that has to be enough. So I will continue with this mockery of a social life.
But just let me know if you see any naked women with a six pack!
JLC
